The Revelation

This is where it all starts, or should I say, this is where it begins again. Life is what you make it. And for me, it seems to have been nothing more than making it from one point to another. Hey, but what about the in between? Shouldn’t that be part of the journey too? This life that I have lived thus far has been so much about the next things, and the thing after that, and the thing after that, so much that I think I have lost touch of what it all means or what it should mean.

Those of you that know me know what I struggle with and why but for those of you who don’t, let me informally introduce myself. I’m EmJay. I have cystic fibrosis. I’m a mother, I’m a fighter, I’m the most genuine individual you will ever meet. I don’t apologize for it and that’s ok. I’m not particularly religious, but I have my beliefs. With that being said I’m pretty sure Jesus didn’t say “you have to tell the truth, but only if it doesn’t hurt someone’s feelings.” Anywho, back to me (insert hair flip). I’m wild, unapologetic, unfiltered, and unstoppable. Society may think they have control of my ways, but, boy, were they wrong. That’s where this idea formed. The idea that I can have a “safe place” to rant, to talk about whatever whenever with whoever (that’s you). 

I want you to know what I’m all about. Well to be honest I don’t know yet! I am evolving every second. So are you. This is the important part though. WE GET TO CONTROL HOW WE EVOLVE. Join me on this journey and see what you can control in your own life and what you can’t. I’ll talk about my life with cystic fibrosis, art, food, fashion, design, and anything else that tickles your fancy (or mine, cause hey, why else would I be doing this?). Oh, and another thing. If it offends you, don’t  let the .dontgiveafuck hit you on the way out. Xoxo.

-BECOMINGEmJay

p.s. Yes I’m Gossip Girl

“The difference between my darkness and your darkness is that I can look at my own badness in the face and accept its existence while you are busy covering your mirror with a white linen sheet. The difference between my sins and your sins is that when I sin I know I’m sinning while you have actually fallen prey to your own fabricated illusions. I am a siren, a mermaid; I know that I am beautiful while basking on the ocean’s waves and I know that I can eat flesh and bones at the bottom of the sea. You are a white witch, a wizard; your spells are manipulations and your cauldron from hell yet you wrap yourself in white and wear a silver wig.”

C. JoyBell C.